Miriam speaks of blocking out thoughts and having self-hating thoughts. Slowly she heals.
The way I have survived from my bad experience as I child was to block it out. Apparently this is normal for abuse victims. Some of them don’t think of what they are doing. Lately I have been reading and using that to block out everything. I just follow the story and read as if my life depends on it. A way to heal from this is to become aware of when you block things out. So I have made a form to help me. That will be my job for the next weeks. I will notice when I am blocking things out.
One also has thoughts of self-hate. This form will help me to become aware of times of self-hate and what I am thinking.
I plan to use this form in the up and coming weeks. Slowly I heal.