I have taken a step back and have to use my new acquired tools to heal. Slowly I heal.
I read a book that brought back memories. Bad memories. The book was supposed to be a romance. The book caused anxiety so I had an anxiety attack when I wanted to go walking. I didn’t go walking that day but the next day I used positive counter statements to decrease the anxiety. Then I succeeded in going walking. So I thought of a positive statement that made the fear less real and less probable. This statement increased my confidence and courage so much that I was able to go walking. When I got home though I just read. It was like I wanted to block out any thought. My anxiety was so great. So I didn’t paint or draw. I just read for the rest of the week. Therefore I have no art to show you today.
I am going to paint a small rat with a bunny for a baby’s change table. I have to design it and then I’ll be painting it using acrylic paints. I am going to be a grandmother for the first time. Oh joy! A new baby will arrive in December. Such a miracle! Such a joy! My daughter has pet rats and wants her child to get used to rats so I will be painting a rat with a bunny on the change table doors. It’s my next project.
Slowly I heal.